Few years ago, when people ask me why I want to be a doctor, to be honest, I do not have the answer. At least the answer that can satisfy me. I join medical school merely because I can. I got quite a good result in my exam, even it is not that excellent, it is sufficient enough for me to join medical school and be one of those “doctors wannabe” creatures.

I’ve been in that kind of condition for years, knowing nothing about the purpose of why I am here.  There is this feeling of proud when you say that “I am a medical student studying in so and so university or medical school”, but really, it is just that. I considered my self lost in medical school. I ain’t doing well in this field. I feel that I just do not have the talent beside the usable brain that I have awarded by The Creator. You know,  sometimes talent are just everything. Remember “Good Will Hunting”?.

In “Good Will Hunting”, the subject (I’m sorry, I didn’t remember his name) were not even a student in the university. He was just a house keeper who keep the floor clean. That is the talent that I am talking about. Some people are just gifted. Well, I am not, at least in this field. I know that this is quite a spiritual discouragement for some, but before that feeling comes and takes over you, I would also love to remind you about “Cinderella Man”.

I do not want to talk about the “Cinderella Man” here. You need to watch the film to understand why I would like you to refer to him when everythings not doing so well. “Pursuit of Happyness” is the other movie that you should watch. I learn one thing in those movies. Believe in yourself and believe in what you are doing. Make sure that everything that you want to do, you have purpose out of it. It will helps you a lot in defining something that you can barely understand.

And yes. I blog about medicine because I finally understand why I am here. I am here because HE wants me to be here. HE must has a very good reason, so that I stay.